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  • Listening to: placebo-each and every song, till my head explodes
  • Reading: our story
  • Eating: cigarettes and old habits
  • Drinking: coke
he's gone. gone for a week and a day from now.
it rain only once since i moved in with him. i used to wake up everyday, next to him, watching the sun on the sky, from bed.
i love sunny days. i love the sun. i love everything about the sun, actually. i would so love to give more details about everything, but i just can't, i'm speechless. actually, i have been a totally different person since he left. i feel homeless, empty and disgusted about my life.
i can't find my words. i'm not going to school, because i just can't watch everyone's faces smiling, asking me how's it been.

it's been lovely, dear. actually, it was just perfect. oh and know what? now it's just a big pile of nothing.

i should really go to school now. promised myself i will.but i got somehow sick. promised i'll go to see the doctor, but i got so sick,i couldn't even get out of bed.
got out of bed, felt a little bit better and than took... oh well you know what they say "old habits die hard". felt awsome, than shitty, than awsome, and awsome, and awsome, and AWSOME. but than i just woke up,and realized he's really gone.
i keep on sleeping with his t-shirt. his smell still lingers on it which makes me fall asleep in the end, or should i say in the morning?
i feel hopeless, left aside, and i love and hate. i want to get in a fight so i could just empty that pack of rage inside of me. didn't feel this for years from now.

i started a short story which combines our story with fiction. it should have 17 parts, but i'm somehow stuck at 12. i promised myself i will finish it till my birthday, which will be quite... soon. i'm afraid i won't manage to finish it. my inspiration is just dead.

so to get back at the beginning, since he's gone, it rain daily. i can't fuckin stand england anymore. no offence for my english watchers.  

hmmm, till i finished this post i actually feel numb.
it's just a state of mind, i suppose. nah, it's just how i am daily: hopeless, guilty, in love, disorientated, disgusted, crazy, empty, numb. i go to sleep,and start again.


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Lara D'art
Artist | Student | Varied
United Kingdom
i love Sebastian, Placebo and Lucky Strike.

Current Residence: United Kingdom
Favourite genre of music: alternative, gothic rock, post-punk, psycobilly, goa, trance, techno, psytrance, psychedelik, dubstep, dnb, jungle, etc.
Favourite photographer: Andreea Retinschi and mr Kostas
Favourite style of art: mostly, all of them.
MP3 player of choice: phone
Skin of choice: pale
Favourite cartoon character: Nana Osaki
Personal Quote: du-te in pula mea!

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smoker12345 Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2013
what kind of cigarettes do you smoke just wondering?
Neptunezworld Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2012
I'ma Drug To Your Addiction
Georgiegoesrawr Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
you've got such awesome pictures. You know what art means :)
darkbylarissa Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2012  Student General Artist
thank you sweetie :blush:
Otravaada Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2012  Student Photographer
..Friendship week! :w00t: :aww:
Send this message to about 15 people you care about here on dA :D,that you feel close,that you care about :love:

I care about you,my dear friend,from hundreds of people I talk here,you are in the first 15!!! :hug: :smooch:
TauruSpixelS Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012  Student General Artist
You have been Featured here [link] :)
tubyx Featured By Owner May 2, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
ohhh... my sweet eye candy :*
darkbylarissa Featured By Owner May 2, 2012  Student General Artist
:giggle: :glomp:
madamme9 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
Multumesc mult de tot,tu!La multi ani si tie!Sa ai un an cat mai frumos si plin de inspiratie:*!
darkbylarissa Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012  Student General Artist
same same:*
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